Results … Month #8

Results … Month #8 (Down 40 lbs) results-month-8

I can’t believe it! I dodged a bullet. Again!

I’m down 4.2 lbs for the month. I could pitch that as another success story for this amazing dietary philosophy I’m practicing. But it just doesn’t feel like that. I blamed December’s lackluster results on the holidays, January’s on work travel, & I’ve been mentally preparing to talk about the winter blues & blahs as my excuse for February. While all those excuses are true, the really huge news in this month’s story is that I haven’t abandoned the diet. I’m hanging in there. Falling off the wagon, & that has happened several times, hasn’t resulted in some huge rebound.

I started this program by practicing for failure. Let’s be real here, most of us yo-yo dieters know that we start a diet on Monday. We enthusiastically make our way through Wednesday. By Thursday, we feel like we deserve a treat. The wheels come off on Friday. And we binge ourselves to a new high on the weekend. Just a little reward before we start a new diet the following Monday!

That’s why I needed to learn how to fail … first. And I’m not talking carrots & celery sticks here! You’ve seen pics of some of my failure foods along the way. When times are bad, I’m eating more failure foods, more often. During those times, I’m eating as I might expect to eat when the diet is “over”. It’s pretty good. I can live happily on a diet that includes French fries & ice cream. Though, even by my rules for failure, I’ll admit to overdoing it on the chocolate!

My big fear now is that things are tapering off. The downward slope of my weight-loss graph isn’t as steep as it was during the first four or five months. Is this the end? Is this as good as it gets? Or will the warmer spring weather, when it finally deigns to arrive, bring along some fresh enthusiasm for the program?

At this point, I am grateful that I haven’t done the rebound thing. But I’m not sure what happens next. I alternate between being cautiously optimistic and then, despairingly melancholic about ever getting to a safer, healthier weight.

The next couple or three months will be very interesting. I’m writing the story, but I have no idea how it turns out.

Welcome to March … here’s hoping it’s a good month for all of us.

Results … Month #7

Results … Month #7 (Down 35.8 lbs)Results Month 6

Is this result an abysmal disaster? A huge failure? I’m not sure. But let me tell you the story & you can be the judge.

It is a little sneaky of me to post results as I do. Unless you care to check back, it looks like being down a reasonably decent amount of weight, like 35.8 lbs, is a good thing. And overall, it is. Unfortunately, I posted exactly the same number last month! In other words, this is the first month where I have not lost any weight. None, zero, nada!

On a day to day basis, even on a weekly basis, my dietary approach looks kindly on failure. Programmed failure is not only allowed, it is embraced, as one of the keys to long term adherence. On a month to month basis … not so much. I was under duress this past month. And right towards the end of the month was the big annual trade show for my day job. This is probably the busiest month of the year for me. Preparing for the show, the activities of the show week, & the post-show work. To top it all off, I returned home with trade show flu! Shaking hands with so many people, from all around the world, it’s almost inevitable that you come into contact with a bug or two that you don’t already have resistance to. Naturally, there are dinners & events throughout the show. If I tell you that I had to attend business dinners at Ruth’s Chris Steak House on three occasions, you’ll probably have some sympathy for my predicament! 🙂

I made some really poor choices throughout this past month. The trade show week was even more disastrous. I can make all the excuses I want, but the bottom line is that if my goal is weight loss on a month to month basis, I can probably classify this month as a failure. The question I must pose now is this … do I pat myself on the back, offer self-consolation, & promise to do better? Or do I beat myself up in an attempt to berate myself into doing better this month?

I think I’m going with the latter! I know it’s not the modern way but then I was programmed in a different era. Let’s see how it turns out in this, the shortest month of the year!